Up until a few years ago, I hadn’t really painted since I was a kid. You know, because I wasn’t ‘good’ at it. Or maybe because as grown ups we’re either ‘painters’ or ‘not painters’, ‘artistic’ or ‘not artistic’. And somewhere along the way I had decided I was definitely not a painter.
I didn’t yearn to paint, I didn’t have any idea that there was any ‘painting’ missing from my life.
Then one day I was at a parent meeting and we all got to paint. It was like tasting something deeply familiar yet alien.
Following that re-introduction I didn’t decide that I was suddenly a painter. But I did decide I would play with paint, you know, just for fun.
So I did.
And it was fun.
And sometimes it’s even more than just fun, it nourishes a part of me that yearns to be nourished.
So I do. That’s all.
Even after that discovery, I’ll sometimes go months without painting. This latest hiatus was “because” our current house is cozy and it would involve taking over the dining room table and have to be packed away after just a short time to play, and maybe because life has been full- well, is very full right now. But I’m reminded, it’s especially these full times where you most need to create the time and the space to just play with something that feeds your soul. Just seeing and feeling the colors dance on the canvass – it’s beauty to me.
Is my painting a masterpiece? Of course not. Tho my one daughter did ask me if I painted it and said she liked it. How about them apples? But that’s not the point.
How I feel inside – that is a masterpiece, pure wonder and light.
I invite you to get curious about what you have decided you don’t do. You can get into why if you want, but really why don’t you just play with it instead and see what happens. You might be pleasantly surprised.
What do you play with to feed your soul? Please share that goodness with us below- I’d really love to hear.
Big Love, Tanis